Just a message to say I'm sorry for not posting Undertale stuff in a while... to be honest I've kind of left the fandom. I still like it enough to appreciate other people's art and I still reblog a fair amount of Undertale things on my tumblr (coldphoenix.tumblr.com/
), but I'm just not motivated enough to do my own UT stuff right now.
The Undertale fandom hasn't been too kind to me... I really enjoyed playing the game so my passion for it was genuine and I was obsessed with it for a short while, but tbh I only really got into Undertale because I was feeling demotivated with my DBZ stuff, and UT was a fun break. But... I guess I'll always be a DBZ fan deep down, and now that I've returned to that fandom sadly my enthusiasm for Undertale has died down.
I had a few more comic ideas that I will in all likelihood never draw, and I had a Gaster fic idea that I always told myself I wouldn't write until I finished my DBZ fic. Well my DBZ fic still isn't finished, and I don't have much motivation to write Undertale anymore, so in all honesty I don't know if it'll happen... Part of me regrets not writing it while I had the drive, but a much bigger part is glad I didn't, because it more than likely would have gone unnoticed and that would have depressed me even more than I already was. The lack of feedback in the DBZ fandom left me literally crying in my bedroom, then my boyfriend came in and found me, and I had to explain myself which was very embarrassing... By this point I'd been struggling in the fandom for so long that I'd convinced myself I'm a terrible writer, and that my lifelong dream of becoming a famous author would never be realised - something that I'd never doubted for a second until I got into fanfiction and realised just how unpopular my writing was. So, bearing that in mind, God knows what that Gaster fic would have done to me. Probably would have led to more crying and a general feeling of worthlessness from which I might not have recovered.
Anyway. I'm not saying I won't ever write it because I do like the idea still, but it's very low down on my list of priorities. I am largely motivated by feedback and I was never popular even when Undertale was at its finest, so I doubt I'd get much of an audience now that the fandom is dying down... and this fact makes me less motivated to write it. It just seems kind of pointless, and with all the other projects I have on right now I don't really have time to write something that nobody will ever read. I can't put myself through that, I still haven't totally recovered from the mini breakdown I had in DBZ.
Anyways. I just wanted to give you all a heads up, if you're here for Undertale only then you probably won't see much content from me... I won't say never, and I am planning on uploading a small Dadster art for Father's Day, but other than that it'll be mostly DBZ for the foreseeable future. Although I am still posting Undertale things on my tumblr, so feel free to follow me there.
Thank you all for following me, and please know that I have sincerely appreciated each and every one of your positive comments
Your feedback is the reason I stayed in the fandom for as long as I did, so thank you so much for that. I guess I'll see you all around. Take care of yourselves